Thursday, 30 September 2010


Its week 29 of the gallery and I'm a little worried about my entry . I thought i had the perfect picture picked out

(which was this one


a very very happy 6 month old Eilidh eating her dinner . She was still amazed that we were actually letting her eat real food , all food was met with this much happiness)

Then last night i snapped this picture


Is it to much ? Is it to revealing ?

I am not sure but i know i love it , that is my boy enjoying his favorite snack . Can you see his eyes turned outwards ? While eating his favorite snack he is also watching his favorite tv show .

Breast milk to me is the ultimate food , i could think of no other picture i would rather share this week that this one.



ZingZillas is the new hit pre-school show on BBC It is a music show set on a tropical island where everyone joins in to create ZingZilla music magic. With musical influences spanning the globe from rock to soul, jazz to samba, big band to orchestra, ZingZillas will get its young listeners jumping, swaying and trilling to music from the world over.Zak, Tang, Panzeeand Drum are music sensation ZingZillas. On their island paradise, this band of primate friends live to play fantastic music. With the help of their mentor, music guru DJ Loose, they create their unique ZingZilla sound just in time for their daily performance, The Big Zing.As well as these regular island dwellers, the island is visited in every episode by a different musical guest. The ZingZillas always discover their musical guests in a lush jungle glade which pulsates with music. They take inspiration from the guests and incorporate them and their sounds into The Big Zing.

ZingZillas : The Album is released on the 4th October and priced at £9.99

We were lucky to be sent a copy to review , the kids grabbed it happily and asked for it to be put on . I planned to have them dancing around to it but unfortunately it did not hold there interest for any longer than the first song (actually by the end of track 1 they were all gone) . Repeated listening has not went down any better.

I don't really blame ZingZillas for this , my kids had only seen the show a few times so none of the music was familiar to them . Also the music is not the type they normally listen to as they are more fans of cheesy silly pop songs.
Not all is lost though as Eilidh has been expressing an interest in the TV show and the past 2 days its been on there must see list . The CD may be end up being a favorite yet .


I think most parents own something made by playskool , for me i think of the company and i think of bright , fun , educational toys for under 3s .


We were recently sent a Push 'n' Stack Gears from Playskools Explore N Grow range.

This product is described as

"This roll-along friend isn’t just rolling, he’s spinning, too! Four brightly colored gears on this wheeled critter figure’s body spin as your little one pushes the critter along. With an eye that spins too and an easy-to-grasp, easy-to-carry handle, this push-along pal provides plenty of visual stimulation—not to mention giggles galore! Then, as baby grows, you can help teach her about colors and counting by stacking the removable and interchangeable gears. It’s hands-on learning with go-go-go fun!
It is suitable from 9 months and available for between £9.99 and £14.99 from most toy retailers.

It may be a little young for my kids now but even the 5 year old enjoyed playing with it . All 3 enjoyed pushing it around and taking the gears on and off. I think this would be the perfect toy for a child around 1 years old . Fun but nothing to difficult for there little fingers.

Now with Christmas coming up I'm sure everyone is interested in saving a little bit of money , follow this link to get an amazing 50% back on any Playskool products purchases between now and the 21st of October. I think I'm going to go and do some shopping now :)

Thursday, 23 September 2010


I have not taken part in the gallery for a while now but i am trying to get this blog back on track .

This weeks theme is smile and i knew i would do straight away .

You see i have two serious children and one who is definitely not .

With Rebecca and Ruaridh they may look miserable but really they may be having the best time of their lives . Eilidh on the other hand always lets her emotions shine.

She has an amazing smile that lights her face up , when Eilidh smiles the world must smile with her

As a baby this is the face we saw ever day


As a toddler it was this


And as a pre schooler we see this (half the time , the other half is screaming but well that is 3 year olds for you)


Wednesday, 22 September 2010

Friday, 17 September 2010


This week has been a week full of up's and down's.

I received a letter a few weeks ago telling me i had been selected for jury duty . Maybe i could of got out of it but i do feel its my civic duty and if i am being honest i was curious about it.

So Monday i set of to the court , i am assuming these things work the same way in most places but will explain how it went for me anyways.

It started with being told how things would go and a roll call - 80 people are chosen each week and those names put in a bowl and 15 people called to sit on the jury . A certain amount of cases are held each week (for us there was 3 ) and you are on call all week (so if you are not selected for one you will have to go through the selection again ) .
Monday was a case against a young man for violence and i was not chosen , it was fine i went home and spent the time with my family.
Tuesday that case was over and i had to back in again - i admit i really , really wanted chosen . It was a little break for me , i got to be involved in something different while daddy got to play mummy at home . My mind was changed when i was told what the case was about - indecent and lewd behaviour towards a child over 12 and under 16 . Of course i was then picked .

I am not sure how much i am allowed now to say about the event so i will not say to much , it boiled down to a young girl making a claim against her uncle saying he sexually attacked her . We listened to this girl give evidence along with the uncle and other family members , we listened to forensic experts and the police and much lawyer talk.

I am not going to lie and say and of this was easy , i hope to never see a young girl give horrible evidence like that again .

The trial lasted 4 days and today we gave the verdict "guilty" .

And i feel guilty , we have convicted someone - we have changed his whole life . I am not 100% sure he was guilty and that makes it worse (i did reflect that and choose not proven as my verdict ) .

I don't know what to make of the experience , i am tired and shaking and keep replaying everything over and over again . Did we do the right thing or not ? It does not matter now as its done .

But jury duty is not a rest or a holiday , its an emotional struggle that i am sure will stay with me forever .

Monday, 13 September 2010

The Last Show

I am sorry about the last post, i have thought of removing but it is not me. A hormonal and tired woman should never blog, it is a lesson i hope i have now learnt.
Things are fine here, actually better than fine. Hubby and i spent months apart and we are getting use to each other again. It is an amazing thing.

This was not my reason for blogging, it is Monday night and i am finally catching up on the finale of Ultimate Big Brother (Uk of course) . I am not interested in the winner but loving all the old house mates and the saying goodbye. The Jade Goody goodbye sent me into my first round of tears.

You have to understand that this show has been a part of my life since i was 18.
I remember picking up a magazine one weekend, i was at a party (or after party maybe ) and it was going in about this new show. I mention to those i with that it looked interesting and noone agreed of course. I started watching the next day, the first eviction had just happened and i was hooked.
I remember during the finale of season 1 running between my bedroom (tv) and my parents (live feed on computer ) .
I remember watching Brian win bb2 on the computer in Canada and spent way to many hours watching bb3 live feed.

Memories of big brother 2005 will always be mixed up with Rebecca's first days. She was so sick and it was on the Friday we realised how much. I remember leaving her sleeping in special care and going to watch the eviction in the tv room. For the first time in years, i was bored and the show seemed nothing. Out of no where my milk came in and i was quickly covered, i started crying and did not think i would ever stop. There i sat 2 days after giving birth for the first time covered in breastmilk and terrified my daughter was not going to make it- what the hell was i doing watching some stupud tv show.

I think after that it was never the same, part of me could never stop thinking if it as that stupid show. I continued watching out of habit without much interest and gave up completly in year 9 and 10. What happened with bb11 then? I have no idea how at 28 i ended up addicted yet again to the tv show that made my summer ten years before.

So now its done and dusted and i am going to stop blogging and actually watch the last episode

(please ignore errors on my phone and its harder for me to edit here)
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Monday, 6 September 2010


It has been much to long.

Our holiday is long over with as is our summer. Rebecca is now in school, Eilidh in nursery and Ruaridh approaching his second birthday. Craig has returned from his trips away and life is getting back to normal.

Accept it is not.

The older the kids get the more i feel like i am being left behind. I want to be a good wife and mother but am so caught up in self pitying that i am neither.

I deeply regreat making my blog so public and linked with me. I have so much i want to just put out there and talk about but i just cannot
Instead its just me, my phone and the tears.

I need to grow up and snap out of this, make peace with what the future holds and enjoy the ride.
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